A New Beginning

Everything great that happens, has a beginning sometime. Most beginnings are small, and amount to very little; but some beginnings are small, and become something great. Tomorrow at 6am I begin my recognition of Rohatsu. A simple exercise for just one man, but the beginning of what? It could amount to a week of torture that will be recognized as another ignorant attempt to wake up, or it could be the beginning of the morning of my life. By the end, maybe I will finally have woken myself up just a little bit...I'm excited and terrified at the same time. Funny to be so concerned about something I've decided to do to myself?

See you all tomorrow night, sleep well.

Still Here

Yeah, I'm still alive, just busy as usual. Sorry I haven't written more, but the end of the semester is nuts. So I didn't get that internship at PPD which was a little disconcerting, because its the first job I've ever applied for and not gotten. Oh well, not the end of the world I suppose. Been really naughty over thanksgiving, but Rohatsu starts in less than 3 days, so I don't think it will be a problem. I guess I should explain what Rohatsu is.

The story goes like this: The buddha reached enlightenment on December the 8th. Therefore, buddhists celebrate that day, and they also created a holiday for December 1st through the 7th. Not your typical holiday though, in fact, its quite the opposite. Basically they use the 7 days for a sort of super training. They sleep less, meditate more, and focus harder. They already do everything to the best of their ability, this is just a time to REALLY focus on what they already do.

I have decided to recognize the holiday this year, and have devised my own system for doing so. I will wake up at 6am all 7 days, work out all 7 days, meditate all 7 days, and be aware to the best of my ability. I will also be writing here every night, so stay tuned.

Well, gotta get to bed now. Talk to you all soon.

The word of the day is: Perseverance

My heads getting a little sore, but that damn wall is coming down. If I have to eat, not-sleep, and breathe my honors project, that wall is coming down. If I have to have a national holiday declared and get school extended by one more day, that wall is coming down. If I have to get a Ph.d before I finish the thing, that wall is coming down.

...nothing can stop that now....

The Wall

You just keep running in to that wall. Harder and faster, slower and weaker, sometimes you run up to it and stop, and sometimes you just don't bother running toward it at all. Its always hard to keep in mind whats on the other side of it.

Life goes on...

I'm in another one of my idealistic moods, so beware if you plan to continue reading. So Bush is the winner of 4 more years as president of the United States of America. My first thoughts are of disgust and disappointment. After watching the debates for the first time in my life, and seeing Bush's demeanor, I don't understand how ANYONE could vote for that man. I'm tired of this convervative death shroud that is running our country into the ground. Didn't we leave England to get away from that crap in the beginning? Now we are becomming another England. Why do we need assault weapons? Why can't a woman choose if she wants? And just when the hell are we going to have someone in office that will fix our education system? I know now more than ever that our biggest problem in America, is that our educational system is a worthless steaming pile of cow dung.

Having said that, its over. Bush won, for better or worse, till death when we all go our separate ways. I did the best I can possibly do, and now I have to continue doing that. Nothing changes with a defeat, just as nothing should change with a victory. Emotions run a little, but then we remember that theres always another game.

I guess the thing that scares me the most is not that Bush is the president, but that the majority voted for him. That means he is a decent representative of the country. THAT is what really scares me. But then what is there to be scared of? None of this is real anyway, right? We are all nothing, and this is nothing, so why worry about it?

The sun will still rise tomorrow...